I'm so loving my new scales. They arrived on Friday morning, express delivery, and I managed to hold off until today (Sunday) before weighing myself so there was a full week between weigh-ins. So I got up this morning, went to the loo and got on... 5.25lb lost!! They're swanky ones that weigh in quarter pounds so I'm getting a more accurate reading, particularly as I was naked when I weighed rather than clothed at Boots. Now I know tht some of the weight I've lost will be the weight of my usual clothes but I don't care!! A loss is a loss and I've now found my true weight. Just me, no added extras like pants and shoes.
So this takes me to 22.25lb in the last eight weeks, which I'm really happy with - over a stone and a half and more than 10% of the weight I have to lose, which feels like such a big thing. My next target is 28lb, two stones, which will be almost 1/7 of what I need to lose. Each stone is such a milestone and it means I can break it down into manageable chunks rather than look at the full 14 stone 3, or 199lb, which is terrifying. But that 199lb has now come down to 176.75lb and will keep getting smaller, just like me.
And I've had a bit of a lardy week, to be honest. As I said in my last entry, we went to Gourmet Burger Kitchen for dinner last Sunday and I had a chicken satay burger, half a portion of chips and some luscious garlic mayo plus a glass of wine. And I'd already had two pints of cider at the pub and then I had a beer when I got home so I was well over my calories for the day. Then we had fish and chips on the Monday and another beer and I've had bits and bobs of naughtiness at work, like mini chocolate bars and a chocolate brownie with chocolate sauce after my burger and fries on Friday. But I tracked nearly all of it and only went over my total week's calories by about 100 and I never once felt like giving up totally and just pigging out.
My mindset has really changed. I don't feel deprived at all, despite losing calories each week (I'm now down to below 1800 a day) and, okay, I do get hungry sometimes but I never feel like giving up and phonong Dominos. I know the weight loss makes all the hard work worthwhile and the more I lose, the more encouraged I am to lose more. I know I'll have some more sticky weeks where I stay the same, or even put on but the general trend is downwards and long may it continue. I've had my usual smoothie for breakfast, having got up at 8:15am despite it being a Sunday, and I'm going to have chorizo and manchego tortelloni for lunch and pork stuffed with spiced apples with oven chips and spinach for dinner. And probably some fruit as well. I love having the smoothie as it gives me over 5 portions of fruit for the day without even trying.
I need to go to Sainsbury's for some more frozen fruit but it's horrid outside, windy and raining, so I might hold off for a while. I got a free proof copy of Dietgirl's book so I might curl up with that and inspire myself further. I can't wait until I can say that I've lost half my bodyweight, like DG. I'm set to lose all my weight by July 2009 if I average 2lb a week, which is difficult but might be doable. I'll have to start exercising at some point to keep the weight loss going. If I get a longer term job, I might join the gym after Christmas. On the other hand, I might not. I might wait until I lose a bit more weight to make the exercise easier as I get headaches from exercising at this weight as my blood pressure is a bit high. Maybe once I've lost 10% of my body weight, which I think is 38lb. And, you know what, I actually believe I can do it!
Sunday 28 October 2007
Sunday 21 October 2007
Almost a banana
Well, what a difference a week makes. Having been so despondent last week about staying the same for two weeks, I'm now full of the joys of spring (well, autumn) having lost 5lb this week. This takes me well past my first mini-goal of a stone to a grand total loss of 17lb. I know that's not even 10% of my final total but it feels good to have broken through the stone mark, something I haven't managed to do since I lost 40lb with Weight Watchers six and a half years ago. Even when I was doing WW or Slimming World, I only stuck at it for four or five weeks and lost 12lb maximum before giving up at the first sign of a gain or staying the same, so 17lb feels like a big thing.
And I measured myself last week to try and alleviate the gloom and have lost 1 inch round my waist and 3 inches round my chest - typical! The first place it goes from is the last place I want to lose it from. My hips are still over 5ft around, which is shameful, but my BMI is below 50 for the first time in ages. I really am getting there. Slowly but at an average of 2lb a week, which is all I can ask for. I can't wait to hit 20lb, which is just over 10% of my target and will hopefully get there in a couple of weeks. But now I know that I can plateau for a couple of weeks and try not to let it affect me too much as I know that the weight will come off when it's good and ready. If I can lose 2 stone by Christmas, I'l be over the moon.
I'm trying to decide whether or not to buy some scales or continue with my weekly pilgrimage to Boots. Boots will work out cheaper and it's the scale I'm used to but I would like to weigh myself when I feel like it, naked so I get my true weight as I never know how much to allow for clothes and shoes. The scales I want weigh up to 27st 2lb and cost £39.99, which is quite a lot, especially as I'll be able to use my all-singing, all-dancing Tanita body fat ones when I get down to 23st or so. But I want them. And we are finally getting the money Bristol Uni owe us this week for removal expenses so we'll be solvent from Wednesday. Hmm, we'll see. I think my consumerist tendencies will win out.
Have just had a lovely roasted sweet potato soup with garlic flatbread for lunch as I needed the garlic to keep me going until we go to Gourmet Burger Kitchen tonight and I get my garlic mayo fix. I might go for the chicken satay burger with chips and the garlickiest mayo or the Greek Lamb burger I had last time, with hummus, tzatziki and chilli sauce. And I'll be clawing back calories all week to make up for it, especially if I give in and have a couple of beers as well. But it's the first time Jo and Tony are visiting Brizzle so I have to show them a good time. And then starve myself once they leave. And I'm down to 1812 calories a day, 81 less than I was on at the start, which is almost a banana. I might need to start cutting my fruit intake slightly or reducing the yoghurt in my smoothie to 100g or having 175g of chips rather than 200g. Or I could just get off my fat arse and do some exercise. But I'm so knackered when I get home from work and I spend the weekend sleeping. I really do; I got up at 11:30 yesterday and then slept for two hours in the afternoon!
But anyway, to sum things up, I'm a happy bod again and have renewed faith in both myself and the calorie counting. Yay!
And I measured myself last week to try and alleviate the gloom and have lost 1 inch round my waist and 3 inches round my chest - typical! The first place it goes from is the last place I want to lose it from. My hips are still over 5ft around, which is shameful, but my BMI is below 50 for the first time in ages. I really am getting there. Slowly but at an average of 2lb a week, which is all I can ask for. I can't wait to hit 20lb, which is just over 10% of my target and will hopefully get there in a couple of weeks. But now I know that I can plateau for a couple of weeks and try not to let it affect me too much as I know that the weight will come off when it's good and ready. If I can lose 2 stone by Christmas, I'l be over the moon.
I'm trying to decide whether or not to buy some scales or continue with my weekly pilgrimage to Boots. Boots will work out cheaper and it's the scale I'm used to but I would like to weigh myself when I feel like it, naked so I get my true weight as I never know how much to allow for clothes and shoes. The scales I want weigh up to 27st 2lb and cost £39.99, which is quite a lot, especially as I'll be able to use my all-singing, all-dancing Tanita body fat ones when I get down to 23st or so. But I want them. And we are finally getting the money Bristol Uni owe us this week for removal expenses so we'll be solvent from Wednesday. Hmm, we'll see. I think my consumerist tendencies will win out.
Have just had a lovely roasted sweet potato soup with garlic flatbread for lunch as I needed the garlic to keep me going until we go to Gourmet Burger Kitchen tonight and I get my garlic mayo fix. I might go for the chicken satay burger with chips and the garlickiest mayo or the Greek Lamb burger I had last time, with hummus, tzatziki and chilli sauce. And I'll be clawing back calories all week to make up for it, especially if I give in and have a couple of beers as well. But it's the first time Jo and Tony are visiting Brizzle so I have to show them a good time. And then starve myself once they leave. And I'm down to 1812 calories a day, 81 less than I was on at the start, which is almost a banana. I might need to start cutting my fruit intake slightly or reducing the yoghurt in my smoothie to 100g or having 175g of chips rather than 200g. Or I could just get off my fat arse and do some exercise. But I'm so knackered when I get home from work and I spend the weekend sleeping. I really do; I got up at 11:30 yesterday and then slept for two hours in the afternoon!
But anyway, to sum things up, I'm a happy bod again and have renewed faith in both myself and the calorie counting. Yay!
Sunday 14 October 2007
Bum holes
I am very cross. And grumpy. And pissed off. And miserable. And every other negative adjective you can think of. I weighed myself today and have stayed the same for the second week running. I've stuck to my calories every day!!! Okay I haven't exercised but I haven't done before. I'm drinking my water and recording everything, even my Berocca. So why won't the scales budge? I appreciate that some weeks I won't lose weight. I know that. But I hadn't planned on a plateau this early in the journey. I've still got 13 stones and 5lbs to lose and the weight should be falling off me. But it bloody well isn't.
I'm starving too. Bacon butties for lunch really don't fill you up and I used far too much oil as I was so cross. Need to cook some tandoori chicken and rice later for my lunch tomorrow as it's a "dark" week and I don't get my lunch provided. Maybe it's the lunches - perhaps they have more calories than I've been calculating but I doubt it. I've even been restraining myself from the delicious-looking puddings and sticking to my fruit. I wonder whether having more booze has anything to do with it? Mum and dad have been here so I've had about 20% of my calories from alcohol for the past two days. But I'd saved up enough calories for it so I should have been fine. I'm baffled and want to give up but I'm sticking with it in the hope that the scales will budge next week.
If I stay the same for the next two weeks I might have to think about something drastic like Lighter Life or the Cambridge Diet as I really want to lose the weight for Jo's wedding in two years and if it's not coming off at 2lb a week I'm not going to do it. Okay, even if I don't lose all the weight at least I'll be lighter but i'd love to buy a Monsoon dress in a size 16 or an 18 at a push. And Lindos is really hilly so I'll need to be fit. I wonder if I should start going to the gym but I can't see me having the time now I'm back at work. By the time I get home at 6:30 I want to start cooking, not traipse 20 minutes down the road and do an hour's exercise first. But I might have to if the weight doesn't budge. As long as we have the money. Which is another story entirely.
I'm starving too. Bacon butties for lunch really don't fill you up and I used far too much oil as I was so cross. Need to cook some tandoori chicken and rice later for my lunch tomorrow as it's a "dark" week and I don't get my lunch provided. Maybe it's the lunches - perhaps they have more calories than I've been calculating but I doubt it. I've even been restraining myself from the delicious-looking puddings and sticking to my fruit. I wonder whether having more booze has anything to do with it? Mum and dad have been here so I've had about 20% of my calories from alcohol for the past two days. But I'd saved up enough calories for it so I should have been fine. I'm baffled and want to give up but I'm sticking with it in the hope that the scales will budge next week.
If I stay the same for the next two weeks I might have to think about something drastic like Lighter Life or the Cambridge Diet as I really want to lose the weight for Jo's wedding in two years and if it's not coming off at 2lb a week I'm not going to do it. Okay, even if I don't lose all the weight at least I'll be lighter but i'd love to buy a Monsoon dress in a size 16 or an 18 at a push. And Lindos is really hilly so I'll need to be fit. I wonder if I should start going to the gym but I can't see me having the time now I'm back at work. By the time I get home at 6:30 I want to start cooking, not traipse 20 minutes down the road and do an hour's exercise first. But I might have to if the weight doesn't budge. As long as we have the money. Which is another story entirely.
Sunday 7 October 2007
On the level
Weighed myself this afternoon and have stayed the same at 26 stone 1lb so still a 12lb loss. I was hoping for my first stone today but I'm surprisingly okay. In the past I'd have been furious and started sulking and been ready to jack it all in but I think I'm making mental progress. Gone are the times I'd come home from Weight Watchers or Slimming World, having put on a pound via the Chinese takeaway, stocking up on spare ribs (c.1000 cals a portion - eek) duck with ginger and spring onions and special fried rice. Or get home and order a Domino's pizza, dips, chicken strips, coke and sticky dippers - well over 1500 cals.
My self-sabotage seems to have gone away, touch wood, and I'm looking forward to losing weight again next week. Fingers crossed. I have to say I'll be cross if I stay the same next week too but, then again, the parents are coming for their first visit to Brizzle and we're going out for dinner next Saturday. But we're going to Fishworks and so it should be relatively healthy despite the lovely bread, garlic mayo and salsa verde they tempt you with. I love fish and I'm so glad it's quite low in calories compared to most protein choices. I'll just have to stay clear of the puddings and dessert wines.
Speaking of puddings, I only had a slice of banoffee pie for lunch on top of eating a croissant with jam for breakfast. Both delicious but hardly filling or healthy. Which is probably why I've got a headache. That and being dehydrated. I've got so used to my 4 litres of water a day that I feel odd if I have less and you never drink enough water when you're visiting rellies. This time we were at Beckie's, Jim's sister, and had a lovely time. We did have a chinese takeaway last night but only a main course and rice, despite being offered crispy duck and pancakes - Christ knows how I abstained as I love them, love, love, love!! We did, admittedly, have some cheese straws and doritos beforehand but I counted them and came just over my daily calories but still under for the week.
Oh, and I've started work for the first time in over a year! It's only for five weeks but it gets me back into the swing of things and I actually enjoyed it. I'm sifting through applications for a Christmas special of Deal Or No Deal, looking for charity cases and deserving contestants and it should look good on my CV and pave the way for other work, I hope. And we get free lunches when in studio, which is both good and bad as I have to estimate the calories. But it's free!!! I'll see if I'm still happy at next week's weigh-in.
My self-sabotage seems to have gone away, touch wood, and I'm looking forward to losing weight again next week. Fingers crossed. I have to say I'll be cross if I stay the same next week too but, then again, the parents are coming for their first visit to Brizzle and we're going out for dinner next Saturday. But we're going to Fishworks and so it should be relatively healthy despite the lovely bread, garlic mayo and salsa verde they tempt you with. I love fish and I'm so glad it's quite low in calories compared to most protein choices. I'll just have to stay clear of the puddings and dessert wines.
Speaking of puddings, I only had a slice of banoffee pie for lunch on top of eating a croissant with jam for breakfast. Both delicious but hardly filling or healthy. Which is probably why I've got a headache. That and being dehydrated. I've got so used to my 4 litres of water a day that I feel odd if I have less and you never drink enough water when you're visiting rellies. This time we were at Beckie's, Jim's sister, and had a lovely time. We did have a chinese takeaway last night but only a main course and rice, despite being offered crispy duck and pancakes - Christ knows how I abstained as I love them, love, love, love!! We did, admittedly, have some cheese straws and doritos beforehand but I counted them and came just over my daily calories but still under for the week.
Oh, and I've started work for the first time in over a year! It's only for five weeks but it gets me back into the swing of things and I actually enjoyed it. I'm sifting through applications for a Christmas special of Deal Or No Deal, looking for charity cases and deserving contestants and it should look good on my CV and pave the way for other work, I hope. And we get free lunches when in studio, which is both good and bad as I have to estimate the calories. But it's free!!! I'll see if I'm still happy at next week's weigh-in.
Monday 1 October 2007
4 weeks in...
12lbs gone! Lost another 4lb this week to leave me 2lb off my first stone, which would be fab if I could get there next week. I was really worried I wouldn't have lost anything as I've been so inactive this week due to my cold but something seems to be working so I'm not complaining. I did only drink half my pint of smoothie before being weighed, which could have added an extra pound nearly but, then again, I haven't been, erm, regular for the past couple of days so there must be some weight in the, erm, blockage! Too much information, I know. Sorry.
I must have worked off some weight walking rounds Criibbs Causeway (Bristol's premier shopping destination) and Ikea (just huuuuge) this afternoon in the hunt for shaving cream and bookcases. Does stacking books onto shelves burn calories? Inquiring minds want to know. Looking forward to my stir fry for dinner - chicken with mixed veg and Wagamama coconut, ginger and lemongrass sauce with 70g of basmati rice. It's been a chicken and rice day - had tandoori chicken with rice (50g this time, smaller portion for lunch) and heaps of spinach earlier but it keeps me within my calories and is low in F-A-T.
Speaking of calories, I've lost another 19 a day with my weight loss this week so I'm now on 1836 a day. Considering how I must have been eating at least 3000 calories a day before I started the diet, I've adapted quite well. I wouldn't say it was easy but I really listen to my body now about when to eat as I'm bloody hungry a lot of the time. But before I'd just shovel food in all day and wouldn't listen to my stomach gently growling before I ate. Of course, I'd like to eat more - who wouldn't? But this seems to be working for me and I'm not climbing the walls with hunger. I'm just slightly concerned about how I'll adapt when my calorie allowance drops a bit more. Christ, I might have to start doing exercise to earn me some more to eat!! That shouldn't be for a while as Tracy from WLR has lost 113lb so far (in just over a year) and has only dropped about 400 calories a day. She does exercise like a demon though. Maybe that'll be me in a year's time. I hope so.
I must have worked off some weight walking rounds Criibbs Causeway (Bristol's premier shopping destination) and Ikea (just huuuuge) this afternoon in the hunt for shaving cream and bookcases. Does stacking books onto shelves burn calories? Inquiring minds want to know. Looking forward to my stir fry for dinner - chicken with mixed veg and Wagamama coconut, ginger and lemongrass sauce with 70g of basmati rice. It's been a chicken and rice day - had tandoori chicken with rice (50g this time, smaller portion for lunch) and heaps of spinach earlier but it keeps me within my calories and is low in F-A-T.
Speaking of calories, I've lost another 19 a day with my weight loss this week so I'm now on 1836 a day. Considering how I must have been eating at least 3000 calories a day before I started the diet, I've adapted quite well. I wouldn't say it was easy but I really listen to my body now about when to eat as I'm bloody hungry a lot of the time. But before I'd just shovel food in all day and wouldn't listen to my stomach gently growling before I ate. Of course, I'd like to eat more - who wouldn't? But this seems to be working for me and I'm not climbing the walls with hunger. I'm just slightly concerned about how I'll adapt when my calorie allowance drops a bit more. Christ, I might have to start doing exercise to earn me some more to eat!! That shouldn't be for a while as Tracy from WLR has lost 113lb so far (in just over a year) and has only dropped about 400 calories a day. She does exercise like a demon though. Maybe that'll be me in a year's time. I hope so.
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